31

It's the last day of the year and I feel nothing. My thoughts are empty and my feelings are ....free.

30

There are still times when I touch you and hold you in my mind. Taking comfort in your calm presence.

29

Told my friend how her life and choices inspires me. "Rica, how can you see poetry the mundane??" She cried.

29

Told my friend how her life and choices inspires me. "Rica, how can you see poetry the mundane??" She cried.

28

Woke up too early for work. I sat staring at the sunset, enjoying my coffee. Writing this in my mind.

27

I love holidays. I can stay up late and hear people at home snore. It's music to me. They're alive.

26

My brother is perfect at humoring my mom. I think I take things too seriously. I take family too seriously.

25

Mom wants me to move in, to watch over her. But I'm out of the house most of the time.

24

It's the day before Christmas, I still haven't had sleep. I feel this day will pass me by. Oh joy!

23

We didn't have a Christmas party this year. No funds. Company's tightening. Bonuses withheld. Yet here we are singing carols...

22

My brain went on vacation ahead of me. It no longer wishes to work. Oh no. Is this a breakdown?

21

Why do people keep secrets? Secrets are like thoughts. Sooner or later it comes out. Somebody always acts on it.

20

I let people make coffee for me. Brian's coffee is sweet, Billie's bitter, JD's watery, Marise's always a special blend.

19

Endings are strange beings. It's a celebrated and anticipated part of change. Can one mourn beginnings and rejoice at endings?

18

This death is affecting me in ways I didn't expect. I feel something must change in me. I wonder.

17

I grieve not for the dead but for those who live. The living do not understand. They're not really "gone".

16

Hate towards a perceived enemy or common cause. Such relationships can be equally strong and demanding but always short lived.

15

Blood relationships they say are the strongest. No matter how dysfunctional, blood gives them that reason for a 'second chance'.

14

"I see it in you." Words that cut through any wall or facade. Words when spoken never fails to move.

13

She was already dead when they brought her to the hospital. Now her heart beats but she is already -- gone.

* Leonarda P. Beltran: 8:15am: cardiac arrest.

12

Today, like a child, I chased the dawn as it sang it's version of creation. Listening to every word. Enraptured.

11

Under the stars, blessed by a light shower of rain and silence, I prayed. Shivering in my corner of heaven.

10

Tomorrow we'll have our break. A much needed break. Anything that can unplug me from this world is a break!

9

I read my blog. It was a year of twenty words that captured moments, thoughts, confessions, feelings and epiphanies.

8

Looking at my nephew and saying the same thing when Brian was born. "Where did he get all that hair?!"

7

She couldn't remember who I was, yet greeted me with gladness. I think Dementia is painful for those who remember.

6

I slept for just 4 hours and woke up feeling like an entire week passed by. Oh it's just Monday.

5

I went to another bazaar to wind down. As midnight came, the streets radiated with Christmas cheer, calm and colors.

4

Another weekend approaches, another world of sales. The rush, the noise, the crowd, the excitement of Christmas. It's addictingly stressful!

3

I think I have to be with people who create, who are driven. Seeking excellence. Proud of what they do.

2

Walking between worlds is easy as long as you don't get distracted. That's what makes it entertaining and distressing. Distractions!

1

Another day, another bazaar. Another life at work and at home. I need a break. Life's too full, too fast.